Camille

2011-07-04T21:15:00.000+08:00

It has been a while, I have to admit that this is a site that I've long abandoned but still having the hope to revive it. Oh well, as far as I can recall, there's nothing that I did not stop half way, organ, guitar, ballet, drawing classes, dancing classes and the list goes on and on. I'm the typical hangat hangat tahi ayam kind of person. For 10 years of my life I've been trying to change it.

After interning for almost 4 months now, I realized that hardworking and discipline is not a character, but a habit. It works the same way academically, I have majority of friends who score distinction every time, and I wonder why I wasn't one of their kind. hmm. The only advice they've given is study everyday, even a little effort counts and helps a lot for preparing for your exams.

So everyone has been talking about their future now, where to work, where to stay, which line to go into, and I keep changing my mind, I just couldn't make the call right now, although I don't have to, I've got like almost 1 year till I graduate, but I need to have a target so that I can work towards it. I've been blindly following the flow for too long. This is the time I realized there is so many people that had already lay out their plans, like they already know what's next! I cannot be this clueless anymore!

Thoughts arrange and rearrange everyday.
Till I make up my mind, I guess I'm ditching blog.
God Bless!

2011-06-09T19:59:00.001+08:00

Learning the hard way.

My blog has been pretty dead

2011-06-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

Blog so dead lately, partially was because i was pretty dead too. Negative vibe is with me all the time, NOT GOOD, need to work on that.

So, 5 random facts about me lately,

1. I dyed my hair- reddish brown, it's still a little bright now, but it will toned down a little after a while, so the hair stylist say la, if it don't, accept the different me!

2. I am officially half way through my internship *gasping for air*. Time do pass faster when you're at work, 3 more months! Got my 3rd paycheck :D

3. I'm going to Bali next February, it's confirm, thanks to Air asia cheap flight tickets.

4. I have a new record of staying up late even though I have work the next day- 2.30 am. Wasn't so bad after all, I manage to survive the whole day.

5. I have insecurities and dependent issues.

Long time no see!

This was taken during our Ipoh trip last year, at the abandoned Kellie's castle. ( the polaroid pretty much says it all)
Who don't adore polaroid <3<3

So colourful! Remind me of the crafts box I used to have when I was into beads.

No more long hair, no more black hair =p

And so this is what everyone was raving about, mehh, nothing special.

Cocoa with pearls, bad choice =/

My typical morning at work =)

2011-05-18T22:57:00.002+08:00

It's either have it all or don't have it at all!

Motivation, can you come back to me?
please.

2011-05-18T20:34:00.003+08:00

halloooooooo, anybody there???

its the sixteenth of may

2011-05-16T21:49:00.001+08:00

Well I'm feeling extremely happy now because it's public holiday tomorrow! and I just got a free meal from neighbor's house warming party. And the first time that caught my eye was the bottles they on the table. omgawd, they trying to get the whole street drunk?! And when he nicely offer me some red wine, I turned him down -_________- just so I don't wanna look like an alcoholic, especially infront of my grandma and uncle.
and since when a little bit of red wine makes you an alcoholic. tsk tsk. dont know what I was thinking.

So anyways, life has been really simply recently. Sometimes I don even realize how fast time had passed,because it's so routine and i felt like I haven't done anything yet, this is even worst than uni life, because I sleep early every single day! minus off some weekends when the boyf refuse to wake up and I had to forced myself to sleep in (such a waste of time pfffft) they don get it, weekend are so precious, for people like me, it's okay, he is gonna get it soon =p I just wanna get out and enjoy myself because work is just soooooooooooooooooooooooooo boring for me, until the extend that even I myself bored my work. And I'm pretty much just blindly doing my job each day, sometimes don't understand why am I doing it also. And why is it so? that I felt like I haven been learning much. Can somebody tell me why ah? Maybe this is just not my thing or, maybe I'm just such a kiddo on the inside that I can't be serious for just a moment. gahhh. I remember one of my best friend warned me about going into accounting, that it's not gonna be my thing. But seriously it's not like I hate it, maybe I'm not understanding enough, maybe if I did, I would love it. Let's just hope so that I didn't choose the wrong course la.

And the down part of this phase of my life is, none of my friends are around me, if they are, they either stay too far or neither one of us have a car to go out and meet up. I have nobody else to talk to so I bug my boyf everyday, lol, sorry abt that. But on the bright side is, I get to spend more time with him during weekends, so it's a fair trade I guess. He is starting internship soon also, so yeah, maybe less dull weekdays!
And when sarah, michelle, joan, mindy and siang come to kl and work, can I finally have a girl's day out?!?! >.>
becauseidesparatelyneedit.

How many times have I said this?

2011-05-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

That I'm truly truly happy.

2011-05-04T20:11:00.000+08:00

You,

never fail to make me smile,

never fail to show me love when I need it,

never fail to warm my heart,

never fail to be there when I need somebody.

Despite,

me being so petty and angry,

me being so demanding,

me being so selfish,

me being so inconsiderate,

me being so emotional.

All and all,

I'm an ass,

a total ass.

I don't know how to tell you how sorry I am.

GLEE - Marry You

2011-04-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

Best Glee episode ever. Heard this song before and loving it now, my future wedding song perhaps? ;)

Season 2 episode 8,
following after this entrance song is "Just the way you are".
Weddings are beautiful, and it always makes me tear.

Glee is just getting better, almost every episode is a surprise.

" who cares baby, I think I wanna marry you~"

The only exception

2011-03-30T21:51:00.000+08:00

The morning after

2011-03-30T12:58:00.005+08:00

Tomorrow is officially a month for my internship, yay! I must say, it's still tiring to wake up early every morning and to stay awake through out the whole day. But I've gotten more familiar with my work, and hopefully I will learn more and slack less. There's still mistakes I make here and there, wasted lotsa papers reprinting, process of learning isn't that cheap.
I've got my following two months planned out, on the other hand planning my trip afta internship. BKK it is! I haven book any tickets nor have I decided to go with who yet, but the will of wanting to go is strong, gahhh. It's hard to book beforehand with all the disasters happening #pray for japan

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Have you heard of Vietnam snowing? And Terengganu is flooded while it's so hot here in KL, more than 1000 villagers have to be evacuated. Terrible isn't it, only God knows what's gonna happen to us, so pray hard, may the victims are in good care now, relieve from pain and hunger, may the fortunates one lend a hand to the unfortunates one. Help each other, because we are all in the same world.

xxxxxxxxxxxx

Apr 2: Got free tickets to watch movie in Pavilion, happy max! Shopping and Pasta Zanmai :D:D:D
Apr 16: Gathering with the besties, Berjaya Times Square apartment again perhaps?
Apr 22: Prom night- Emcee Douglas Lim, Singer Suki, And Dance group Dynamix *excites*
May 2: Public holiday, replacement for Labour day which falls on Sunday ( so happy can cry!) pluspoint: gang from Singapore coming up baybeh!
May 7: Deadmau5 FULL LED CONCERT @ Surf beach, Sunway lagoon.

lunch time,nomnom.

Back to life

2011-03-22T20:41:00.000+08:00

Quoted from my friend's status in facebook today,

" Maturity achieves when a person postponed immediate pleasures for long-term value. "

And I couldn't agree more.
There comes a time when we have to start thinking of what are our priorities, as a matter of fact, it should be practiced since young. Whether homework comes first, or fun comes first, and I always go for the later. As time goes by, discipline did not become a habit, I still do things last minute all the time. I still choose fun over things that I'm obliged to do maybe not all the time, but most.

Work has toned down my life a little, and that wasn't really a choice that I can make, I feel like I'm forced to push myself down and down everyday, less fun less entertainment and by the end of the week, I would feel like bursting.

As human nature comes along, I'm glad to say that I'm adapting a little better now, use to the working hours and not much of entertainment during weekdays. I look forward to weekends, it feels precious like gold. I deal with Monday blues but after that, the days seem to pass faster.

I'm picking up a little of this and that, working is a learning process.
And I'm happy I get to finally understand more now and is able to help out at work.
I'm fortunate enough to have helpful and friendly colleagues, nice environment and indeed gonna be a place I will grow to love. =)

so adorable, sleeping on my right!

sleeping on my left!

boyf's cousin's dog, so fluffy! I love their fur colour =3

so sleepy so comfyyy

my bag was their toy =.=''

besties were down @ ole ole bali
awesome companion, awesome food

the person that makes everything possible for me =)

<3<3<3

I-phone freak, but i dont blame you =p
I want one too!!!

Was lucky to have you guys to grow up together,
cheers to many many more years of friendship,
hopefully till death do us part.

:)

2011-03-18T01:09:00.000+08:00

Hi blog, I'm more on twitter now :D:D don't hate me will you.

Communicating through phone and communicating face to face is a very big difference.

I get it now.

I need to bear in mind that, there's not only one thing that will make me happy in life, there are many more, to keep me motivated, more importantly, to keep me sane. Oh god, I haven been praying, if that explains, I feel like I've been pushing my way through everything, and that's not gonna work things out.

I've forgotten to stay calm,

I've forgotten to remember,

I've forgotten to act my age.

Time to grow up, time to learn how to speak like a grown up.

3 weeks,

and you have already open my mind to a lot more possibilities,

temptations I suppose.

I become what I think,

and what I think is to always find the easy way out to be successful,

am I the only one?

Everybody talks about being successful and rich,

I know I want it too,

but not as bad as other people out there,

and I ask myself why everyday.

What do I want in life then.

I just want to be have a simple life that I can be happy and contended with. It doesn't matter whether I will be famous one day or not, it doesn't matter that I'm gonna be the manager of the company or not, I just wanna be able to earn enough money to live a comfort life. Is the path to this too hard?

2011-03-17T19:47:00.000+08:00

我不知道我为什么哭，小小的不顺利，就会让我变得很脆弱，我哭是希望我哭了过后会好过一点，我看到了自己的缺点，却不知道该做些什么改变。
每天工作，过的一天是一天，但是，随着分开的时间，我变得越来越没有力气，也没有动力，
我真的没有想象中坚强。

2011-03-09T23:31:00.001+08:00

feel the distance,
feel the difference.

2011-03-02T19:26:00.000+08:00

For the first time after many many months, i'm actually crying.
probably i'm not use to this life, the environment, and life without company of friends and him.
I spent almost all my time with the same people, and now I actually feeling pretty damn lost.
Work is fine, colleagues are nice, but somehow or other, i'm feeling the pressure from the manager already. About little little things and culture in the office that I have to learn, it's no longer like uni, you can't do whatever you want, you don't get to see your boyfriend whenever you feel like it.
and it sucks for now but i know i will have to get through it and i will.

you don't have to read this

2011-02-18T07:43:00.000+08:00

emo because today will be the second last day staying in malacca

wei i'm going for training only ler why am i feeling like i'm graduating like that

haih just emo la cannot izit, let me emo once in a while la. hmmph :(((

have to be on my own soon, i'm sho sad D:

Distracted

2011-02-12T01:06:00.000+08:00

Meow one paper down! and it was worth all my hard work and sleepless nights, felt like finals is almost over, lol. I'm up in the middle of the night again, for my second paper tmr, thank God is in the afternoon, and there comes Sunday, the killer paper =/
The cashew nuts i bought has been sitting down there like forever, heard that almonds and cashew nuts are good for brain, not sure if there's any scientific proof but who caresss just munch munch munch! Was suppose to munch when I'm studying lar, but after Cny it seems like I'm staying away from junk food already. This year we have tons of junk food, brought back some leftovers and it's still laying around the house.
Went and see my industrial supervisor today, phew now I'm starting to feel it, man I'm really gonna start working in an actual audit firm, partly excited that I finally get to experience what all this 4 years of uni was about, partly feeling uncomfortable leaving my comfort zone, and last but not least, last semester with half of my close friends here, not forgetting I may only get to see the boyfriend during weekends ;(
No more highlands, no more skipping classes, no more staying up to wee hours in the morning, no more sleeping till the sun goes down, no more walking to breakfast after monopoly deal/movie night/tani/whatever things that we can come out with. FOR SIX MONTHS!
Should get use to sleeping before 1, waking up at 7, work routinely monday to friday, back home with no more energy left to do anything else, and hopefully my gym routine will jadi lar. haihhyohh just kill me already.

On the other hand, I think this year's cny was great, was sufficiently spent with family, never felt this way for a very longggggggggg time, ever since dad and mom left, the house has been rather quiet, and it feels incomplete. This year, uncle aunty and cousins were back, thou it's just two of our families, I'm already so contented, with the additional member to the family, which is my niece, and my nephew making noises running around the house, I feel so alive again ;D
mom and dad, I have always hope that you guys have the chance to witness this, this beautiful family of yours =)

Most "eventful" new year

2011-02-04T18:53:00.030+08:00

And so I pretty much set myself on nerd mode, no mood for cny, gatherings, and stuff. I limit myself to only family gatherings.
I'm just going on with the routine of eat, mahjong, and study. Almost forgotten how does it feels like to study at home, surprisingly is still the best place for me to focus. Spacious room, BIG table, BIG bed, air con, and when I'm hungry, I just have to go downstairs. What more can I ask for?
This is so comfy and the only thing I regretted was not bringing all my books back! or not I could have just stay until Thursday since my paper is on Friday. Oh man, how i wish I can bring my home to malacca, minus the freedom I get by staying by myself, I have all the advantage!

Angpow from our priest! :D

I have lost count, we've known each otr since froeva!

We've all grown ;)

Family *heartttttttt*

Thanks Livon babe for the pretty earrings! love it!

Cousins from Sg =)

Uncle with my niece!

I know right so little pictures only, sigh.

Back to locking myself in the room, listening to mahjong sound downstairs and munching on bak gua, it's not too bad after all, shall reward myself with movie night out with the family later ;)

New year breeze

2011-01-31T12:38:00.000+08:00

Weather has been kinda bad, Kluang was flooded and I'm not too sure how is the situation now. From the pictures I saw on facebook, it's almost as bad as year 2006. I remembered that year, I was supposed to go for an educational talk in town, that was when I just finished my SPM, and everyone was concerned about what to do after that, which uni/college to go to, what course to take etc etc.
But due to the weather that day, I overslept, I missed the talk and thankfully, I missed trapped in town. Kluang town was terribly flooded, cars could not move in and not even buses. The kampung melayu around that area and also some housing area which are low were affected by the flood. Looks like this time, many are affected as well.
I'm heading home tomorrow, day after is the reunion day, I'm uberly excited but I can't seem to take my mind off books, I haven been studying, if that explains. I shall start later all right =]
Hopefully the flood will be clear by today, so that the unfortunates can have time to clean their house before cny.
On the side note, things has been very well recently, I am, truly am, thankful :)))
Leaving my bunch of awesome friends pretty soon, for the few of them, may they have a wonderful last semester in mmu and a bright future ahead.

What have I achieved

2011-01-31T11:59:00.002+08:00

*This was drafted last week but I forgot to publish, two post in a day! :D*
Blogging sometimes comes to me like a dream, like when you wake up, you tend to forget what was your dream even though at that moment, it was so intense and unforgettable. I often have inspiration to blog when I'm in the bathroom, don't ask me why, it just strike me. But now when I finally great goodbye to my last assignment of the semester and have the time to sit down and blog a little, all of that thought just flew awayyy. hmm talk about passion to blog eh.

Problem solved!

2011-01-25T14:15:00.000+08:00

And so my dearest cousins are going back on the 1st, they gonna pick me up on the way! *teary eyes*
Imma so happy dippy dappy, everything is solved now, I can bring back all my stuff and have all the time to arrange it, all the junks in my room will be cleared to at least half. Ahhhhh I love how things will eventually work out :)))

Some pictures from behind the scene,

Lomofied

oh man and you think modeling was easy, just pose and take picture, it's so much more than that. You have to think of how to present the dress nicely, what accessories goes with it, and if you're hardworking enough, what make up and hairstyle goes with it, phewwwww. This few shots took us more than 2 hours to complete, but I'm really happy at the outcomes, and that there are people who like the dresses. All of this motivates me to keep it going, hopefully we can improve in whatever forms that we can, to make all of this better.

For now, I'm gonna take a step down while I concentrate on what's more important- to pass this semester(if possible, score!) I'll most probably gonna be MIA again but who knows when I'm all stressed out, I might update again. Till then, to all mmu students, study hard and have a Happy Chinese New Year!

Remember to be safe on the road

love.

OH HAI YO

2011-01-25T01:25:00.001+08:00

I've been missing for a reallllly long time I know, but I'm currently pretty occupied arranging transport to shift my stuff back home, and to shift to subang and and also packing. My room is in such a mess now, bags and boxes everywhere! The reason why I'm doing all the planning now is because I don't wanna waste my one and only break before freaking six months internship starts for driving up and down shifting stuff here and there. But everything is just not going my way, I really need a perfect solution.
Just splurge like half of my monthly expenses on buying formal clothes because I don't own many. So heartache now, I gave up in looking for a new dress of chinese new year, I'm gonna just wear my old clothes hmmph. I should be feeling guilty and I deserve not to buy any new clothes anymore, I 've been buying so many for the past whole year! Plus I don't feel chinesenewyear-ty at all, finals starts on the 11th :(((((
no mood at all.
zzz
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Feeling so down coz brother change date to come malacca and pick up my stuff, means I have to take bus back to Kluang for cny, means I have to go buy bus ticket, which also means I haven buy bus ticket! FML surely sold out ady one. Plus I thought I wanna get all this done before finals, then I will have nothing to worry about.

*Big sighh*

Okay I feel so much better after pouring my heart out, I'm gonna put aside all this now, concentrate on my revisions. It will all eventually work out. So chill mille, CHILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

Things to do before finals

2011-01-10T23:06:00.001+08:00

This semester is stressing me out because 3 out of 4 subjects that I'm taking is super tough, note that I'm only taking 4 subjects and it's already suffocating me. I want an easy way out, to be honest, to get this over with and to get my degree.

So to say, in one month time is my finals, but there are things to be done before the killer comes!
Not to mention CNY is one week BEFORE finals, DOUBLE KILL!

*edited
~~1. to eat prosperity burger~~
2. to watch The Tourist
3. Girl's outing!!!
4. to eat korean food (the last time I ate was bf's birthday =( )
~~5. to shop for birthday present (emhem you know who you are)~~
~~6. to buy a red top for CNY lol I'm very tradition okay~~
~~7. to UPDATE our blogshop (girls aren't you excited :DDD)~~
~~7.1 I cannot promise in massive updates, we will only bring in pieces that catch our eyes~~
~~8. to buy a new eyelash curler~~
9. day trip to Jaybee
10. to get expired films, smena has been sitting down there like forever
11. to shop for formal clothes! this part i paling tak suka D:

Four more to go! :D

Christmas present- she is so soft and fluffy!

Ze couple

Sarah, Livon, Me

Celebrated cousin's 21st on the last day of 2010!

Girls of the night

Birthday girl Siang and Special VIP, Sara.

Coincidentally they all wore leather jackets!

Joshua and mua

Countdown party

Gimme the glow sticks and disco lights!

DJ's deck

Surprise for the birthday girl

Celebrated Jia Xin's birthday!
Happy Birthday girl!

Make it beautiful

2011-01-06T20:31:00.002+08:00

FINALS IS COMING! like in a month time *panic attack*
My first paper falls on the ninth day of cny, so i guess i should start studying now like NOW, but damn how on earth am I suppose to sit for finals during cny, not until the 15th is over!
Oh well, stop complaining, my friend's first paper is on the 5th day of cny, MMU really do knows how to make our life miserable. 2 more assignments and 1 more midterm then I'm done.
Clock is ticking real fast, one and a half month more and I'll be off for my industrial training ;'(
Gotta shift my stuff back to kluang, and shift some of my stuff to subang, haven even gotten any working outfits.
As much as I resist to leave this place, I'm just not willing to spend money on working outfits yet, am just so not prepared!

While I'm doing my training, half of my friends are gonna graduated D:
me so sad. this is like technically the last sem for all of us to be together already.
Feels like another phase of life is coming to an end, soon we are gonna be working adults and before you realise, we are in our mid twenties, talking about money and economics, trying to take charge of our lives.

Okay enough of this freakingmeout shit.
Oh by the way! for those who had been following HIMYM, do watch the lastest season!
You'll get what I mean.
Till then,
Happy new year dear readers! Have a blessed year ahead!
=)

Cheers to 2010

2011-01-03T00:57:00.001+08:00

Spent Christmas and New years with loves one, 2010, was indeed an incredible year for me,so many ups and downs, so many decisions made. Now that it's over, I wish that 2011 will be a better one.
Starting it off by forgiving the past, it feels good to make peace, and by that, I feel more relieve than ever.

#18

2010-12-28T13:04:00.003+08:00

#17

2010-12-28T00:23:00.002+08:00

Lately,
I get angry at the tiniest thing,
I get angry when people don't live up to my expectation,
I get angry at imperfection,
which maybe
not exactly the most rational way to react.

Met up with all the old friends for Christmas,
thinking back of the old times,
and realized, what I remember most about those days
were actually all the happy memories.
We had fights, disagreements, cold war but at the end of the day,
we never let any of those came in between us.
We do drift apart, grew in separate ways, but we still come back to this circle that belongs to us,
to care about each other, to remember each other, to do the best we can with the limited time we have whenever we meet up.
Once in a while, a warm hello and how are you doing, really do make my day.
The most touching thing I will never forget about the convent girls were,
they folded 1000 Origami for my mom on my 16th birthday.
My mom was critically ill at that time, and on my birthday itself, they surprised me with a big box, and when I opened, it was full with Origami, I tried so hard not to tear.
For those who might not know, one of my mom last request was to put those Origamis that you all made with her when she passed on.
Thank you girls, really. :)))

#16

2010-12-20T04:25:00.006+08:00

Currently listening to: Talking to the moon - Bruno Mars

Done with caroling, Yay! We went to Portuguese Settlement for post-caroling as we heard that the Christmas decorations are up by now, didn't know how grand it was until I reach there, it was amazing. Did you know that they used to have Christmas deco competition between houses, that's so awesome wei, I hope my housing area has that too. Was reluctant to go at first coz was damn tired but luckily I did. But if you want really good pictures, you gotta use a dslr, my camera unfortunately couldn't capture the beauty of the place. tsk tsk.
There were a few houses we went the decorations were like all over their front porch. They have floating Santa, Christmas tree that turns, and reindeers that are full with lightings, angels, and many many more! So creative and absolutely Christmasty! Let the pictures do the talking shall we?

Simply love this pic of myself, hee, vain.
Getting ready for caroling.

The crew

The guys

Julie sponsored

I wanna build snowman with real snow!

Balloon Santa!Damn creative

Super like this. They even got special lighting effects.

Mini funfair lar

Lightings everywhere! and spinning Christmas tree inside the house :D

Santa Claus is coming to town!

Us again :))

Seaside, always the best <3

Caroling just ended, but I'm missing it already =/

#15

2010-12-19T05:12:00.001+08:00

Latest update! I've finally won the monopoly deal, twice for the night! LIKE FINALLY GOSH.
Caroling was awesome, the people that had us over were too kind to offer us nyonya food, many many types of cake and angpows :)) so touched. Especially when we came to one house where a popo was staying alone, she kept saying she is very happy to have us over, I dunno why at that moment I almost felt like crying. man I think she is really lonely, hopefully her children will take good care of her. Caroling is about spreading the joy of Christmas and I'm glad to say, we did achieved that, and it really worth all the efforts we put into. Partially thankful that we are almost done with it, because it's really tiring, and I can see my assignments piling up already T.T

Canon baby says hi!

We haven't officially met have we?
(hmm excuse the mess,hehe )

My favorite red skirt, got it from www.hype.com.sg

Till then, have a beautiful Sunday!

#14

2010-12-18T16:38:00.003+08:00

Fwah it's only 13 days away to 2010 and I have only made it to 13 posts!?!?
Seriously, cannot trust what I say, heh.
Spent all night editing my blog's layout, finding for the perfect background, somehow gave up along the way to use the customize html from blogskin. I dont know what is the problem but it keeps showing that there's an error in the html, like I can understand it. Sigh I'm just gonna stick to blogger's templates then.

It's a week away to Christmas! Gawd I'm so excited already! Our group are having caroling tonight and maybe BBQ at yee cherng's place later at night. We have been playing Monopoly Deal for every single day since Sunday, it's super addictive and frustrating. The fact that I've not won one round myself it's quite depressing and making me starting to doubt my own IQ level or MAYBE my friends they are just too dirty.
All this people, damn manipulative, tsk tsk.
I have no gaming cells in my body la, CS also like that, left for dead also like that.
And all aim me because I suck at all of it. pffffffft.
The bf is out of town, enjoying the beach and the sun. Damn nice, I hope he gets darker *evil*.

Oh and ohhh! I've finally gotten myself a bag,after searching high and low after like a year? This is my first time spending so much on a freaking bag, but I like it la so fair la I promise I will treasure it and take good care of it so that it will last as long as how much it costs me *kedekut*
hehe not earning my own money mah, feel very guilty spending so much, gonna cut down on my Christmas and CNY new clothes ady. This year, spending way too out of budget, gotta prepare myself financially, meaning spending wisely, saving up, and only buy things that are necessary (omg seriously am I hearing myself?)

2 more weeks till the new year and everyone is talking about it already, time for new year's resolution again, hah! I did achieve a few of my new year's resolution this year *proud* but now I gotta prepare for my confession tmr first, it has been years since I last did my confession, and this year finally feel that I'm ready to do it.

Still got lots to update but gotta go get ready now, so ciao people. Thanks for reading my blog :)

#13

2010-12-13T02:29:00.000+08:00

Done with midsem break, now it's back to studies again.
Spent all night tidying my room arranging my stuff, feels good to have a neat room =)))
now now now, time to focus on what's important, since I've already gotten myself a firm for my training, I have nothing else to worry about.
I'm only taking 4 subjects this sem, but it feels like I almost couldn't cope some of it.
Gotta work a lil harder, and be a lil more hardworking.

Photoshoot tmr, hopefully everything will be up on our blogshop by wednesday, can't wait!
Girls! Do visit us
www.cosmostrings.blogspot.com

#12

2010-12-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

Just the other day, we were on our way to supper, and we started testing each other's spelling.
The boyfriend was sick and whenever he has phlegm he will come to me and say " B, I have phlegm, P-H-L-E-G-M " repeating the spelling every single time, until it's stuck in my head. So we started spelling diarrhea ( also spelled as diarrhoea according to Wiki) and then we move on to food.
We got stuck spelling a name of a drink/flower,the one in yellow and will drink without fail for at least 10 cans every Chinese new year. You should be able to guess what is it by now.
Everyone took out their phone and started using the dictionary and nobody seems to get it right.
Today I went for breakfast and I finally saw it on the board of the kopitiam, and I memorize it this way

CHRY-SAN-THE-MUM

Yes, the mum,
Chrysanthemum!!!
Get it get it?
:D

#11

2010-12-04T10:53:00.002+08:00

#10

2010-12-01T03:32:00.000+08:00

Can't wait to graduate.
I'm just so sick of studying already.
Thou i know studying is still better than working.
But all this intense pressure, accumulated by my constant slackness and laziness,
attacks me like a very silent slow death.
I think,
I'm taking all this too easily,
time to be kiasu?

argh, I'll try la okay.

#9

2010-11-20T22:53:00.002+08:00

Our footstep.

Dear friends,
you've made all of these years wonderful.

#8

2010-11-18T19:52:00.002+08:00

And I love you boy =)

#7 I can haz this

2010-11-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

A girl's dream.
I will smile dreaming of it!

#6

2010-11-15T23:31:00.001+08:00

Chris Daughtry- September

How the time passed away? All the trouble that we gave
And all those days we spent out by the lake
Has it all gone to waste? All the promises we made
One by one they vanish just the same

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

Now it all seems so clear, there's nothing left to fear
So we made our way by finding what was real
Now the days are so long that summer's moving on
We reach for something that's already gone

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

We knew we had to leave this town
But we never knew when and we never knew how
We would end up here the way we are
Yeah we knew we had to leave this town
But we never knew when and we never knew how

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

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Couldn't stop listening to this,
well whatever happened in the past,
it will never go to waste,
it mold me into what I am today,
everything that was used to be so confusing,
it's all clear now.

Standing at the same place,
but nothing looks the same,
memories stay,
life moves on.

Cheers,
to a better me,
and you.

#5

2010-11-13T16:28:00.000+08:00

When people try to piss you off

So are boys more complicated or girls?

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Birthday party tonight,

Ahhh I love weekends,

=).

#4

2010-11-13T05:48:00.002+08:00

Geez keeping up with this is hard, because I don't really like to blog just because I have to.
On the other side, time has been passing real fast for me, means I'm happy, right? =)
Ohmygosh, half of November is almost gone, and it's coming to week 5, and I still don't know shit! why oh why I never learn, later have to rush and study like mad for midterms again.

Done w/ my first roll, gonna go develop it tomorrow but not sure how long it's gonna take, so be patient with me people, and don't get your hopes too high, I seriously have no clue how is it going to turn out.
Whether is it gonna look lomo or gonna just look like normal pics.
Did some shopping and got myself a few T's, I realize I really don't go too fancy, I've always been the T-shirt and jeans kinda girl. But I did considering getting a few dresses and see how long I would last wearing it to campus =p

Am starting to scout for formal wear, but I feel so lost. Don't even know where to begin. Blame it on my course man, we only have presentation most also twice a year, damn pathetic, now if you ask me to do presentation I think I will have stage fright. Haihs accountant sad life is it, just stay in the office do work only, not need come out meet people one, not need submit proposal one, so be nerdy and have a dull life, is it so?
Well, you gotta wait until March to find out.

Speaking of which, I'm gonna start my internship March next year, it's gonna be 6 months long, so yea, I'm gonna miss here a lot, and I'm gonna miss out a lot too =(
The meantime I will be away, few of my close friends will be graduating already, can't believe campus life it's coming to an end for them, and it strike me how close am I to working life.
ahhh one side feeling excited to be able to earn my own money but another side just can't help to feel sad looking at how much time I will spend working, probably most of my life time already. T______T
ain't this just plain sad.

Pictures from Halloween!

All of us!

The girls! <3

The sunflowers!

   Yc, Siang and Kevin!

   Doctor and Nurse!

   And the night ends with a lot of love :)

xoxo.

#3

2010-11-10T09:30:00.000+08:00

And so the baby has arrived. :D:D
I was in the shower when i heard a call from the guardhouse, informing to come and collect it.
My housemate took the call and told me the moment i got out of shower.
I did not even bother to dry my hair, threw my towel on the bed, grab my keys and left straight for the guard house, in my house clothes.
My hair was still dripping water, and I was wearing those big faded Ts, talk about self image. tsk tsk.
And I was already late for class.
I rushed like mad to class, only to know that my lecturer was on leave, FML.
so another lecturer replaced her and I somehow ended up in Mcd's for lunch =p
Bought one roll of normal film just for test shots and I finally learn how to function the thing with the help of Joshua.
Why am I talking in point form? Coz I'm gonna be late for class again. >.<
So yea, be prepare for awesome lomo pictures *fingers crossed*

Have a great day for mine already started off greater than great =)

#2

2010-11-09T00:39:00.001+08:00

Haihs too late for second post. Second day itself fail ady FML.
Can I make it up by doing 2 posts today? :D
I've got myself a new toy, am waiting for it to arrive, ohh and ohh, this is a new start to a hobby that I'm gonna spend a lot of money on. how lar. but I've waited long enough to finally make up my mind in getting it.
lomo, my love. hopefully I will still love you after experimenting, as it is fully manual, pictures might not just turn out as how I wish. Gonne waste alot of films just to get the hang of it. But my lomo buddies out there, get ready for snap snap trip teeheehee.
Show you a picture of this baby shall I?

Lomo Smena 8m (yes not diana f+, hah, I change my mind just like how a girl changes her clothes =p)

Nice or not nice or not, like damn old school right. yea i know diana f+ looks more chio, but I prefer the effect of this cam. cant explain so I will let the pictures do the talking. hopefully soon. *omgawd so excited*

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Today was a bad day, but it's because I was feeling shitty that's all. Nothing happened. Missed my security investment lecture thou, haihs, damn guilty. Got lotsa work to be done, and I stupidly bank in a cheque that is not due until next month, seriously I need to learn about all this or else I will get myself into trouble endlessly. As if I have not enough of paperwork to deal with. ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGHHH
Have to run around campus AGAIN to get stuff signed. ish I really hate it.

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Just stop it. I really don't like it.

#1

2010-11-07T20:01:00.001+08:00

It's 54 days away to a whole new year, and i'm numbering the post just to see how many blog post can I write until the end of year 2010. Sounds very challenging to me ehh.
I was just wondering, if I were to write a very honest post everytime I feel like it,especially emo post, knowingly other people will read it, will it be nice? (doesnt mean whatever I write here is a lie lar)
I was back home for the long weekend, me and my friends was having a conversation about how irritating are those people that always seek for public attention, constantly updating their facebook status, twitter, blog where ever they can. Ahh yes freedom of speech, or maybe the " I don't care how other people thinks about me" talk, but it annoys the hell out of me.
What I meant was, yes you can say whatever you feel like it, but do think of the consequences of your own talk, at least think about how other people might feel. With you rambling about how vulnerable you feel, doesn't make things better, instead, shows how immature you are.
What I'm trying to say is, some things are better to be kept to yourself. You don't need the whole world to know it, nor you have the obligation to inform everybody. Ohh well, maybe that attention given can calm your soul or whatever.
I better stop right here before I get nasty.

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And it was just today that I went to the cemetery because it was All Soul's day last tuesday ( hits me that I should visit more often) and attended the mass before that, I was feeling pretty overwhelmed. (refuse to use the word emo wtf) because the mass today reminds me of a very close friend of mine that passed away 4 years ago, which soon to be 5. I have never felt so emotionally saddened for a very long time, not until the extend that I have to hold on to my tears so that other people won't look at me and thought that maybe the Holy Spirit suddenly possessed me.
This church, was the place we knew each other, we grew up together, Sunday classes that we attend every weekends, and hang out after that. We had a lot of memories together, he would be the peace maker every time anyone of us fights, be the joker that would entertain us, and behind of all this, he would be the person who care a lot about us, and always watch our back. He made an impact to each and everyone of us. He was like a brother to me, a friend close to heart. And until this very day, we still do hope that he is around.
We still talked about him a lot, that's because we miss him a lot. I know he knows that, and I know he is watching us from above.

Cosmostrings

2010-10-28T02:06:00.001+08:00

Hey!

Can't believe the last time I posted something was so long ago =/

Have been quite busy with finals and then semester break. Now it's all good, results are out, new sem has started and I am feeling all recharged again.

There's a new passion in my life,

present to you,

www.cosmostrings.blogspot.com

It's Sarah's and my newly launch blog shop. Feel free to browse around and if you see anything you like, drop us an email at cosmostrings@gmail.com =)

Thank you for all the support from our dear friends and customers!!!

Diana F+,Diana F+, I'm gonna say it again, DIANA F+!!!

2010-09-26T10:09:00.005+08:00

I tend to blog more than often during exam periods. Because this will be the only time I will be awake in wee hours, not partying the time away but trying to study, emphasize the word TRYING.
Geez I think I won't end up being an accountant, I don't even have the urge to continue ACCA when I grad/start working, as I get nearer to completing my degree, I have more and more things that I want in life.
Talking about things that I want in life, the wish list has been adding on ever since God knows when, and as I look through my old posts, I already gotten two out of three things I listed down 2 years ago. =)
Man sometimes even I can't stand myself on how I MUST get things that I want but say already is things I want right, of course will try my best to get it.
Wait am I listening to myself?
I think this is myself trying to overcome the-guilty-of-spending-money-talking.
Never the less, the list goes on like how life goes on =p

Diana F+ FTWWWWWWWWWW!!!
Doesn't it makes you go aww aww awwwww just by the sight of it?

Attach it w/ Diana Instant Back!!!
Tell me now who doesn't love Polaroid!
Polaroid w/ Diana F+ I swear to you this is the best combination everrrrr
you guys who came out with this, whoever you are,
you are so brilliant!

I know a lot of people has been saying about how unrealistic it is to have an analogue camera, but seriously, you will be amazed by the outcomes, plus it's not meant for taking daily life pictures anyways.

It is art.

That sentence itself is already powerful enough to convince myself.
I don't know much about art, to be honest, I'm not even close to being artsy.
My drawings, handwriting, painting all fail big time one so yea I don't even know why I'm telling you this.
Tsk tsk the beauty of not sleeping.

Okay back to lomography

There's the ten Golden Rules :
1. Take yr camera wherever you go.

2. Use it any time- day and night.

3. Lomography is not an interference of you life, but part of it.

4. Try and shot from the hip.

5. Approach the objects of your Lomographic desire as close as possible.

6. Don't think.

7. Be fast.

8. You don't have to know beforehand what you captured on film.

9. Afterwards either. (man I love this one.)

10. Don't worry about any rules.

Take pictures of things, scenery, nature, any random thingy that you come across, w/ this you will start paying attention to all the tiny little details that NEVER in your life you pay attention to. For me I'm into colorful things, highly contrasting pictures satisfy my visual desire. hmm that sounded wrong but who cares I haven slept yet so excuse me!

It does requires you being very spontaneous and of course, lotsa practice! Prepare yourself to start with few rolls of fail films but soon enough you will get the hang of it.

(chehh say like I know like that)

Wait till I get it then I will let you guys know all right!

p.s : love Blogger's new format and add-on functions in posting. shall fully utilize it when I can.

Free like the kite

2010-09-23T20:27:00.013+08:00

I find it very hard to focus, there is always gazillion things running through my mind. Even when it comes to the time that I have to, I somehow don't have the inner energy to do so. Maybe I have came to a realization that things have not always been what I expected, therefore, I always look into the possibilities and the impact of my decisions, whether it concern me myself, or the people around me.
I am so caught up with life recently, all the dramas and dramatic changes, within such a short period of time. It still feels unbelievable as ever. The heartaches and disappointments that all the false hope and expectation has bring. Sometimes I ponder about the decisions I've made, but not in a sense of regretting it. Just wonder if there is a better way out, a better way to handle things. But since I've already decided with this, I'm gonna stick with it, for this is the best that I could do. I have really no intentions of hurting anyone.
I have always feel like I am in a mess, but seriously, people at our age, who doesn't? At this point of life, it's always about soul searching and learning about what we are capable of doing. And the most important thing that we all have been trying not to lose, is our true self.

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I am so excited about this coming road trip!!! There are only two things that we are gonna do, which is EATEATEAT and PARTYPARTYPARTY! :D
We are gonna party the 'Ipoh' way, after so long, we are finally making this happen.
A getaway with my girls :))))))) SWEET!

So long never show face already, better show face a bit =p

Korean food, ahhhhhhh, my loveeee. I feel like eating it again!

2010-09-16T04:57:00.002+08:00

Come what may =)

2010-09-10T05:27:00.001+08:00

What would I do without you guys?
What will I be?

Yawn

2010-09-08T22:30:00.002+08:00

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I feel bad
very bad
very very bad
for hurting her
I feel like
a bad person.

Reality kicks in

2010-09-08T22:16:00.003+08:00

Same ol`

2010-09-08T04:27:00.003+08:00

Seriously WHAT IS WRONG with my stomach??!
I feel hungry every three hours or even less, and I am not even giving mercy on the proportionate of food I have been eating, which I wasn't suppose to.
I have been eating a lot, like a lotttt! After few weeks of my diet constraint followed by a terrible gastric attack, just nice ah, to let my effort flow down the drain.
Maybe I just need to eat on time and the acid juice in my stomach will somehow balance back( got such thing?)
I don't know about that but it's kinda annoying to feel hungry every now and then, like maybe an hour or so after my meal, I'm already thinking about the next thing that I wanna eat.
I'm scaring my friends, I'm scaring myself, but I'm hungryyyyyyy like I haven eaten anything the whole day.
At first I thought it was my appetite, but nowwww it is the gastric juice that is giving me problems.
gone la, i'm just gonna continue to gain weight ni la.

The possibilities

2010-09-08T02:09:00.004+08:00

I wonder if I'm a man, will I be able to love a woman the way it should be?
Because I admit I am one of those woman that would complain about how man are not treating their girl right,or not being gentleman enough. Typical ey?
Well, can't expect me to be any different, girls will forever be girls.
But I gotta admit, there's something good about man who are lack of sensitivity towards things and girls, it shows that, they are men, truly men deep down inside yo :]

2010-09-04T02:44:00.002+08:00

I didn't understand the love we had.
Maybe if I did, I would have surrender long time ago.
I wouldn't have insisted.
One thing I am certain,
that I will not fall in love like that anymore.
No more.

2010-09-01T05:19:00.001+08:00

Because you were part of me for a very long time
and it affects me.

2010-08-21T02:17:00.001+08:00

the last thing that I want now is to have it repeating again.
I hope you are different.

2010-08-05T19:41:00.000+08:00

I'm sick of all the insincere.

Because I am just random like this

2010-08-04T23:21:00.000+08:00

-imgfave.com

How could you

2010-07-31T12:32:00.002+08:00

Whatever that they are doing, it's working.
It is affecting my thinking.
I don't seek no explanation or confrontation.
Because time is all I need now to prove that I was right about you.

Well said

2010-07-29T02:58:00.000+08:00

Not just another day.

2010-07-22T02:54:00.001+08:00

Gonna make it right this time.
No more mercy to myself.

One of those a.m. moments

2010-07-21T03:05:00.003+08:00

I have a little of everything today.

From anxiety, to fear, to disappointment, to sad, to disappointment again, to pissed, to neutral, to emo, to tears, to relieved, to excited, to glad, to happy, to stress.
I live life to the fullest or what.
;)
This pretty much sums up my day.

Caught up with midterms recently. will be back in no time.
xoxo

Tongue tied

2010-07-18T01:24:00.002+08:00

Bleh.
No motivation to study.
The laptop is just too tempting.
Tomorrow is Sunday which means I am only left with two days.
GG.
Watched Despicable Me just now.
It was good, more than just good.
It was creative, touching, and real.
We all enjoyed it.

Felt great catching up with Michelle again,
like there's so much to say.
At least I get to let go this twisted feeling a little,
with her hearing me out.
Wee download is done, now I can sleep.
Goodnight world. sweet dreams.

2010-07-16T00:54:00.002+08:00

Mehhh just playing with my webcam. Been staying at home trying to study.
And here comes weekend! Can't wait for the sleep overs and never ending gossips at my girlfriend's!

xoxo

Fuzzy blue lights

2010-07-15T01:49:00.002+08:00

Don't ask me why.
Because nobody would understand,
and it's just so hard to explain.
But I have stopped whatever I used to do,
am just trying to be myself,
where happiness was never out of reach.
Thank you to those who said sweet things to cheer me up, to encourage me, and be there for me, you know who you are <3<3<3
And the most important thing to remember, is not what I have lost,
instead I've gained myself a best friend that I could ever ask for.

A part of me died when I let you go

2010-07-08T10:32:00.000+08:00

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this while
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

Vanilla ice ice baby

2010-07-04T20:46:00.002+08:00

Trying to understand this. Trying to be not so selfish. Trying to believe in what I believe in. Trying to make a big step. Trying to think rationally. Trying to be realistic. Trying to balance my soul. Trying to be a better person. Trying to be as optimistic as I used to be. Trying to not make the wrong decision.

Pretty baby

2010-07-03T12:44:00.003+08:00

Hi world,
I am back from redang, took lotsa pictures, can't wait to see them on facebook. teeheehee
That place is still as beautiful, when the whole light blue see through sea and white sand came to view, it just took my breathe away, I told myself, this are the moments I would live up for. I would die to go to places like this, so many on the list now, and I am just waiting for the time I can afford to.
We didn't really get to chill, was all the time rushing here and there. don't know why, but I think I've stayed long enough to get myself very tanned now *sad
face so dark now *sad sad sad
Holiday mood have to end, for real this time. Gotta switch back to my routine life, and finish up this two years, its gonna end before I even realize, gotta stop wasting time.

I wish you were here

2010-06-28T14:45:00.003+08:00

I have concluded that my blog is not one so much about the updates of my life, like what have I been doing lately, and what interested place I have been to recently.
And why is that?
Because I see no point in describing how I feel about certain places and how you all can imagine through my own description of words. Maybe I can show you pictures but I am just lazy like that. All that I can say is to tell you that certain places are worth going and by the end of the day, you really have to experience it yourself.

What a defensive post after some time.

I think I have this ego-ness in me that fights till the every end of everything, sometimes the wrong thing. My brother has been telling me that when people tells you something bad, it's not because they want you to feel bad, it's because they want you to know the truth.

Now a long way after i left my own comfort zone, I have became more independent but at the same time has changed to a very different person. I have to say, when you are alone outside, friendship and relationship change you the most. Because you are away from your shield, away from people who used to be around to protect you, to say things that you'll never like to hear, I somehow misses that.
I have almost forgotten how is it like to have parents around, a phone call to ask when will you be home, a sunday morning breakfast, just somebody to ask how's your day, the nagging of me being too lazy, the nagging of me being on the phone too long, and just someone who awaits you when you come home, instead of a big empty house.

Enough said, I am not asking for empathy here, just wanna remind you guys that we are now old enough to learn how to love our parents back like how they love us.

And I am giving myself a little time to settle down, to think about things I should have done long time ago, but was afraid to. Decisions take you to another path of life, where uncertainty is insecurity, afraid that I will regret this one day.

I like to play

2010-06-24T16:59:00.002+08:00

wanted to blog
but just lost the mood to.
herm.
i hate making decisions.

Awesome holidays

2010-05-25T17:22:00.004+08:00

Hey world, sorry I was MIA =P
I am enjoying my holidays after the 2 weeks of battle, not to mention the 2 weeks before the battle where I lock myself at home, so it's actually one month k, ONE MONTH!!!
I HATE FINALS.

So currently I am in KL, been hanging out with my cousin and his gang, super nice people, and basically they occupy my time here. :D
Even went up to genting for a night and manage to sneak in to the casino teeheehee.
It was really an eye opener, didn't know this is how a casino looks like and it can be this pack at 3 in the morning! no need sleep one ah this people.

I manage to get 2 part time jobs, better than nothing right. So I will be off to Kelantan this weekend to work for the cybergame fest. It's gonna be a long way up and fingers cross, that we can reach Kelantan safely. What do they have in Kelantan anyway? I think I should bring along my laptop just in case I have nothing to do there.

But the highlight of this holidays is the gathering we had in Berjaya Apartment. The idea was really random and everyone actually turned up for it! We had lotsa fun catching up, talked about life like old people, sighed about how some of us has changed, all heart to heart talk. There were joy and tears, and alot of cursing, hehe. =P
Almost forget we were once this close and we still can be <3

Lazy to post pictures, they are all in fb so yea.
One and a half more weeks to go, sob, gonna be stuck in melaka real soon.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
:((((((((((((((((((((

2010-05-18T01:27:00.001+08:00

Nothing can fill this kind of emptiness.

Give me back my freedom

2010-04-29T12:47:00.002+08:00

I have not been updating because there's nothing to update. FML

Life has been pretty much the same except finals is approaching and I am still not in my full efficiency mode yet. That will only happen one day before my paper. But all is still good (if i dont get a panic attack) as long as I sit down quietly away from my laptop, I should be having enough time to cover everything. (dammn am I optimistic or what?)

BUT srsly, I really hate memorizing for exams, accounting students are obliged to answer every paper in essay form, I have not done multiple choice question for like 2 years? We have so much to memorize until sometimes, I think I am just memorizing instead of understanding. And because we have to memorize everything, and not everything can be digested, I tend to end up with only bits and parts of this and that. And when I get stuck, I refused to give up and do the next question, I refused in believing that I cannot recall the answers. I knew that I definitely came across the answers before, I memorized it, but what the heck is it.
SIGH

OH I did my MUET last weekend, on a freaking Saturday 7.30 morning. If that wasn't torturing enough, we had to read six long unrelated facts to our life and I didn't even finish reading it. I was spending too much time reading and reading the articles again to make sure I have gotten the right answers until I lost track of time. Next was the writing test, that went quite well, as in I am able to come up with points and elaboration, I tried to crack my head for bombastic sentences but I just gave up after my introduction because there is really not enough time. As for the listening test which only lasted half an hour, was just sad, I managed to get 9 out of 10 answers but I don't know what happened I did not follow the instructions in writing it in less than 3 or 5 words. I just didn't. Why? I don't know. I JUST DIDNTTT
T___________T
wasted.
MUET is supposed to be msia university english test, yet they conducted it in malay, how ironic is that?
It makes me feel like I am still in high school.
"tolong buka kertas soalan kamu dan semak kod dan mata pelajaran"
wtf
MAJULAH SIKIT

Are those moments real

2010-04-28T21:02:00.002+08:00

real enough for me to stop doubting?

fxck

You make me smile

2010-04-07T00:58:00.004+08:00

Ever felt so tiny that your troubles suddenly seem so far away?
Everything will turn out fine, eventually. So why worry?
As long as I do my part, I will know what to do when I get there.
Now concentrate on what I am suppose to do, not what I like to do.

Smile.
Because I like to see you smile.
Everyone of you who are reading this now.
=)

Are you up for it?

2010-03-27T03:29:00.002+08:00

I have this crazy idea, what do you guys think of garage sale?

Sunshine

2010-03-24T11:44:00.005+08:00

I think my blog is boring.
I don't have much pictures to post.
Therefore I emphasize the need to have a new camera!
So guys if you have any contacts for weekend part time job do let me know kay,a billion thank youuuuuuu, you will be my life saver =D

.+.+.+.+.+.
I love year 2010, because all of us are turning 21, and since 21 is a significant year, symbolizes us turning into an adult legally, lotsa friends have big plans and big birthday parties. I LIKE!
I can't even remember when was the last time I attended a birthday party man, it has been so so long.

So this was an old friend of mine since secondary school, she is so sweet to invite us although we seldom see each other due to different courses. I went with my housemates and classmates and we really had lotsa fun, what beats great company right.
Pictures were taken by Jia xin's Sony, we really love her camera, take awfully awesome pictures, no matter what kind of lighting, it still make us look good =3
Plus, hers has an additional effect- Panorama effect, damn naise *.*

I really want it T_T

2010-03-23T12:18:00.004+08:00

Canon Digital IXUS 210
My nikon died. I am happy! Because I didn't liked it. Nikon sucks. Maybe only my version. It is really old, my dad bought it for me 4 years ago, so the functions pretty much suck compare to the cameras now.

I was all the way SONY ( as in mentally) until my brother and my friend Christopher got themselves a Canon Ixus. I have to say Canon Ixus is so far the best camera I have ever used.

From then I realised alot of people are using canon so I was thinking of getting one too.

Actually to me, Sony and Canon takes equally beautiful pictures plus their price is almost the same. It all comes back to individual preferences.
In presentation wise, Sony is more stylish and have more choice of colors. That was the first thing that attracted me.
But now canon came up with the function, miniature effect, and fish eye effect, freaking cool wei. But sony also has another effect called sweep panorama.
So hard to make up my mind, but I will start saving now and will do more research about it until I am able to buy it.

Roxy - Harbor Shoes in Grey

Roxy - Harbor Shoes in Black

Recently, I have this thing for shoes, I think it's because I am sick of wearing flats everyday. You know like at the end of the day your feets get sweaty and you are not wearing socks. Ewww.The worst is raining days. My pair of flats have really been through a lot with me tsk tsk. In fact, I need to constantly change them once they are worn up, shortest life span = 1month ;________;
And it is ridiculously hard to find a suitable pair of flats.
And when you finally got the one you like, you have to throw them three months later, so sad la.
So I've decided to get a pair of proper shoes, I have been eyeing on this for quite some time, it's nothing special just a simple comfortable pair of shoes.
I am still deciding whether to get the grey or the black one.
I think I will have to go down town one of these days and try it on $.$

If only its a dream

2010-03-23T01:58:00.003+08:00

Misses him, everytime and everynight.

I had never seen him smile ever since mom left.

How I hope that I can rewind time and be there for him.

Time is running out

2010-03-22T01:05:00.003+08:00

Life is so short to hate anyone.
Life is so short to fight over something that is not worthy.
Life is so short to be depressed over something u can't get.
Life is so short to be not appreciating what you have.
Life is so short to be wasting your time thinking of what could have happen.
Life is so short to spend this moment sad.
Life is so short to hesitate of giving back to the society.
Life is so short to tell your family how much you love them.

Aint want my body to give me problems

2010-03-18T02:12:00.003+08:00

I am freaking tired today, I just felt like my body gave up on me, resisting me from doing anything more than this.
I notice how inconsistent my sleeping time and eating time is, basically my lifestyle is upside down and i know that is bad.
I may not feel the disadvantages of sleeping late and eating late now, but I will soon. I also realize that I don't recover as fast as I used to when i was 16,17.
haih that just sounded sad.
Anyway its the 'peak' season for college again, assignments piling up, midterms coming up, speaking of which, I hav 3 more to go and I have only covered one chapter woohoo way to go.
Did I mention that I am taking volleyball this semester? It is more like hell to me, because it is not something I always do and not even one of the sports that I can really play. So we got tested for our service skills today, and am happy that I manage to hit 6 out of 10 balls over the net, but my marks were pretty low.It is rated by how far can u hit the ball over within the court, highest is 5, and my max. was 2 -.-
Better than nothing.
And next week is our digging test and fitness test.
Fitness test = 1.5 KM
with 8 1/2 minutes
provided if we still can dig the ball after the run.
I think I will probably be half dead.

my mind went into another world

2010-03-16T03:07:00.002+08:00

Been thinking lately, how many things a 21 year old girl can achieve?
And how many out of that list, I have achieved?
I always didn't try hard enough, didn't do enough, didn't care enough.
Is that really what I want myself to be in my life?
.+.+.+.+.+.

Find so hard to blog long post nowadays, I just like to keep it short and simple.
Ahhh and its 3am now,it feels so good to be having a 'me' time, clicking the time away, with my favorite songs. <3

.+.+.+.+.+.
I hate to use the word wasting, but I am doing it. ;(
wasting time wasting money wasting food wasting water, you name it.

MIA

2010-02-26T02:12:00.005+08:00

I am officially back to blogging *drums roll*

;______; tears of joy, thank you for still coming back to my blog,I was lost and found.
LOL.Why so?

I nearly converted to Tumblr.

Tumblr's style of blogging isn't that similar as blogspot, it is more like saving time and reposting people's post. So in tumblr, u can see interesting post reblogged by thousands of people, and that's basically how it works, it is not really so much of long post and photos. They have from quotes, texts, photos, links, musics to videos.I can't deny that their way of uploading videos and musics is so much more efficient and easier than blogspot.Which is why i got attracted.
But still to me, Tumblr serves a totally different meaning of blogging.I still prefer blogspot hehe.

However I still have it and I am using it as a private diary =X

.+.+.+.+.+.

The weather has been insanely hot recently and is becoming intolerable. Facebook is full of angry people complaining.
I was back in Kluang for Cny and it did not rain at all until the fifth day. That also did not last more than five minutes and we had water rationing on chinese new year's eve, how is that? Luckily my area started on nian chu yi, we manage to have our reunion dinner in peace. According to my brother who finally got his longest break of the year to stay in Kluang(kesian) this will go on until march. :< I feel so bad for my family coz the last few days before I left for mlc the water pressure was ady running low and my toilet upstairs was technically just dripping water. And we have to bath with the icy water that was left in the pail days before.Kesian my grandma okay.

Haih endoftheworld coming,what to do.

.+.+.+.+.+.

To be honest, I don't really have the feeling that I am in the new year until chinese new year came and I get to see all my old old friends. I realised I have known them for a very long time by now and damn, another year already.
Endless mahjong and gambling session, left over food everyday in the kitchen, squeezing time to meet friend and relatives, that's my typical chinese new year.And I love it! It is just so exciting and cny's mood would just boost my energy anyhow. Now I feel all recharged and ready for this year =)

Emo post

2010-01-27T23:21:00.008+08:00

Hey! this is after 27 days!

All the time I feel so hard to put some feelings into words, because that I will need to sink into deep thoughts of mine but hell all my friends know how much i shout/blab/laugh most of the time so its kinda difficult for me to quiet down. Why is it so hard when it comes to word, or to something serious?

When I daydream, I will imagine myself trying to make conversation with some big shots or maybe most unavoidably, my boss/superior and i can't even make a decent one.
It will go like HAHAHA! then YA, MAN! then HAHAHHHA! then "dot dot dot".

Am i just scaring myself?

I used to think that all grown up will know everything, they will know what to do.I don't have to think of what to do, they will tell me what to do! But am I not a future grown up? Parents had done their part in molding me into a person with good values. I have never doubted that I don't have any of that.I can be so sure, to tell you what kind of person I am and to tell you to do what is right.

Boy oh boy, was that ignorance?

Four years down the road, ever since I was 16, I have seen things that she has always been hiding from me. She makes sure that I grow up in a world that I think beautifully of, so that I would not lose hope like she did. Now I understand why she has this look in her eyes.

Life caught me off guard, pain came striking right inside, scars left behind, tears dry,soaking in insecurity&lost.
I know nobody likes to read pessimistic post, like what am I trying to prove right.
And because I know there will be people reading this, I think I have reserved way too much to actually type about what is real.

I want to be standing up, looking at the sky, and be proud of who I am.
Not to be letting fear getting into my way, not to be afraid of what you have got to say about me.

Just something to think about,
Every time you interrupt a person before listening and thinking about what they have to say, it doesn't make you a smarter person.
You are in a way stepping them.
You are in a way not treating them seriously.

If you think I am nonsense,
Well
I don't really care.

The last day

2009-12-31T13:38:00.002+08:00

Thought of any new year resolution yet?
Time passes so fast without me realizing it, now we r few hours away from 2010 and 2009 is gonna end. Well it has definitely been a splendid year, full of joy and laughters.I have learnt some stuff, been to places and change some of my perspective.
For some reasons, I might be closing this blog for i don't know how long. If you realise i haven been updating, it means that i am taking a break here. Closing it as one chapter of my life is closing. And I look forward for what this new year has gotta offer. Wishing you guys a Happy New Year and be shower by lotsa love and wonderful things.

xoxo

Photo post

2009-12-18T00:09:00.015+08:00

Something went wrong and I have to delete all the photos from my previous post.
Photos credit to chris because i have a shitty camera, the resolution are not the actual one because i grab it from fb. *HINTING*
I seriously have to get one new camera man. *make poor kitty eyes*
Haihhh never gonna happen =( Santa claus dunwana choi me

Orchard Road 12/12/09

Zouk Out 12/12/09

Went across country

2009-12-17T18:38:00.022+08:00

HEY GUYS!

I just came back from Singapore and I can tell you that every part of it was aweSOME!
I really enjoyed everything about singapore, their systematic public transport, their reasonable taxi fare, their shelter in walkway, their doesnt-delay-at-all MRT, damn efficient okay, wont make you feel like you are wasting time, AT ALL! why so much difference one =(
Plus point is, things are so damn cheap compare to malaysia( in the circumstances that you're earning SG Dollar of course)
However, my friend did compare the price of a beg she bought in Msia with the exact same beg selling in sg, and after converting, she bought it 20 bucks more expensive, like wtf, i can feel her pain.

What attract me the most is everything in Sg is beautiful, though the food sucks big time.
Their buildings, their houses, their apartments, all fall into places they should be, like you can see it has been really well planned and design. Sit in the bus also won't feel boring lor.
Even when I am at the bus station, I don't feel like i am at the bus station at all!
I don't feel dusty, stuffy, heaty and most important, INSECURE.
I don't have to be paranoid about my wallet my handphone my cash, constantly touching my pocket to see if it is there, constantly checking my beg. ahhh i feel carefree. But still doesn't mean you don't have to becareful at all --->low crime rate doesn't mean no crime

And other than their leng leng building, all the chicks there makes you go woot woot.
Thats what we call fashion sense, in Msia, to have fashion sense and to have a piece of fashion sense can cost you a bomb.
Things there are so affordable which explains why their living standard is higher, they can afford alot of branded stuff and even their brandless stuff is so pretty. WHY MSIA IS NOT LIKE THAT!!! =(

But i still prefer staying in Msia, prefer the food here and what's more important is that my friends and family are here.

I am 2 days away from finals, so people wish me good luck! Haven plan anythg for Christmas yet but I can't wait for it to come.
Counting 13 days and 2009 is over.
SO SAD
I am getting older
I feel i haven done enough for this year, yet I am gonna close this one chapter of my life and hope for the best for year 2010. =D

p/s: i initially plan to post pictures only but end up writing such long post.

Me being random

2009-12-04T04:04:00.004+08:00

- miss reading chinese novels

- wanna start reading twilight, new moon, eclipse, and breaking dawn!

- has a upside down bio-clock

- love eating breakfast before i sleeps

- has deep deep love with chocolates

- PMS effect is getting stronger

- want to watch happy ending movies

- want people who are sick to get better

- want a queen size bed to lie down with you

- need a new cleanser

- can't make up my mind in which one to buy

- can't get enough of shoes

-can't seems to be obedient enough

- is still having problem pronouncing

-can't make the "terrrrrrrr" sound with my tongue

- still does not know how to whistle

- is getting good in slacking

- loves being random

If

2009-12-01T01:59:00.005+08:00

If this world is about games
How well can I play it?
Will you play nice if i play nice too?

If this world is about benefits
how will the devil seek his victory?
In material and money

If this world is about being not true

how will you cope with the emptiness of your soul?
for missing out being real

Can't smile without you

2009-11-16T01:43:00.003+08:00

Surprisingly today I manage to print my notes smoothly, unlike the usual times when i spend almost up to 2 hours to get the notes printed out (a little here and there of course) , you don't expect me to stare at the laptop most of the time would you, but to be frank, that's almost it because my laptop is so lag and i have to control myself to multitask. waste of time indeed, but it's not like i am that busy anyway.

Spent my weekend reading a book- Message in the bottle by Nicholas Sparks, he is one hell of a romantic expert, i am sure that book would touches anybody who reads it, i like the plot of his stories, almost all, but its going too far away from reality. too romantic never gonna happen.
I mean i believe in romance and it's not like human being is incapable of it but life ain't gonna be that nice all the time, if you get what i mean. Because when romance get too fancy and materialize, it seems like almost anybody can do it and they can do it to anybody.

Christmas is around the corner, and it caught me thinking for I could not recall myself achieving anything just yet, and one year has gone by. But this year did started off feeling real good and hopefully it will end just as good as it started.

To my own surprise,

Happy 7th month anniversary baby! <3<3<3

For the first time I am wishing you over here, because I believe we both has lost track of dates, and since i realize it while blogging, I will just do it right here.
Thanks for bringing me out whenever I am bored in KL, despite your busy schedule.
Thanks for driving me here and there.
Thanks for being so helpful each time when I am so helpless or just purely not independent enough,
Thanks for putting up with me every particular time I get unreasonable,
Thanks for being so patient and caring,
Just to let you know that I really appreciate everything,
And I cherish what we have and is truly contented.
Loves,
By.

What makes this world perfect

2009-11-04T16:44:00.006+08:00

This is what that unite us human, whenever, wherever *evil laughs*
It bring us together as one, serving the same purpose humbly.
There are a few that I seriously can't live without it, and i believe so does you.

1. PORK

People who don't fancy/eat pork please don't feel offended, this is purely my own desire *.*
I so miss ths fried fat meat balls! Needless to say, Shao Rou is my family all time favourite, is in the blood, what to do.
And that herbal kuew tiow soup, omgawdddd. heavenly~

2. PORTUGUESE GRILL IKAN PARI + SOTONG

All bad angle tsk tsk, sorry that time too hungry so what I wanted was to PUT THAT IN MY MOUTH.

This is one of my favourite shop, I almost never fail to eat here whenever I am in midvalley.
This is located in their Oasis Food Court, surprisingly right, good food at food court, no kidding.

3. CHICKEN WINGS

Whether it is steamed with soy sauce, marinated with habanerd( so called spicier than cili padi), fried with that darn corn flour, barbaque with barbaque sauce -.- and the list goes on,
ohhohhohh and KFC!
It's just fingers lickin good

4. Personal likes- Anything that is wrapable

It comes from a varieties of popiah, twister and hmm whatever they call them.

5. BEER

lol just kidding.

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yala seriously kidding laa.

The sieness

2009-10-15T23:49:00.002+08:00

I am feeling so alone
occupying myself with chocolates,
all the way from UK
How can this still not cheering me up.
Tmr is a significant day
which can't be make significant at all
for significant shall not define in one day
but many more days to come
so

anyway the clock is gonna strike 12am soon

so

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There's no so.

My friend told me that the four principles of life is
first:know what to choose
second: learn how to let go
third:cope with loneliness
fourth:resist temptations

and i think in order to change yourselves or things,
the first thing you have to do is to admit it,
and it will all start off easier than you think,
true story.

Agree? not?

x.x.x

nv stop missing outings with mom and dad
missing home indeed
people who can go home where their parents are at
are so damn fortunate
how can i not resist to grow up
my heart has not feel safe
for this long
and it will still go on
but i'd still love my life laaaaaa

immaaconfusechildhaha

Pretty lady

2009-10-14T01:43:00.003+08:00

People who watch MDG 1 or izit 2 woot woot
I just saw Ming woot woot woot
I have to say she is so pretty in fact i din recognize her at first,
was thinking woah this girl is kinda hot and oh wait she looks kinda familiar
and finally OMGGG this is ming from MDG from MDG
by that time i am already walking out of the shop
."
We were in this "Gei Dak Sek" Tong Shui shop in ss2 and she was with her friend, how small lar this world, ya tell me? Though i can't really adapt with KL lifestyle but still I wana say i love KL!
I am here for only 3 days and it definitely can't beat the happeningness in malacca for em let me see, 3 months?
Okay fine i think i am abit overboard now, seriously live in KL will die wei, don't know need how much money to survive, how to go shopping malls resisting those temptations.
but damn she is hot. haha, i can't believe i just saw her in real person, end my night happily,
hehes :)

I wana watch 500 days of summer! who's with me?
oh btw its a thiller not a love story? how can that be?
And to people who has strong heart, do try Sorority row.
Good luck coping the heart pressure!

Bad ktm experience

2009-10-12T01:02:00.004+08:00

I am in KL now, just arrived this evening and i nearly got killed in the ktm today. -_-
like squeezed u to death kinda of killing.

I understand it's sunday and it's a very pretty evening n everybody wants to get out of the house, but i can't help but say, malaysians are so inconsiderate.

I am actually very pissed off but i am trying to keep the cool so yea, SOOOOOOOO INCONSIDERATEEEEE!

say i kiasu, live in malacca no ktm lrt or what so ever, should get use to this and its normal bla bla bla bla bla. oh shut up.

We can actually make a change to this so called malaysia "Culture" if we are willing to, imagine what the tourist will think of us. damn kiasi la malaysians.

This is not the first time, but it make me freaking pissed because i was with luggage, laptop and all, and just got off from the bus, sweating like nobody business, nearly got hand cramp.

Lrt wasn't so bad but when it comes to ktm, OMFG, people were so packed, and everybody just wanted to squeeze in the ktm the first second. er helo, can't you see that it is already full?

i was standing in the middle of the entrance and got pushed in, until i am sticking someone behind of me, then some UNCLE actually bermuka yg tembok sangat, shouted "people inside please go in a bit, masuk dalam, masuk dalam sikit la"

Apparently nobody wana layan him but he keep pushing us in and in and innnnnnn until everybody got stick together with each other, And at last he got in, satisfiedly.

The story doesn't end here, my hand couldn't move,I din get to hold on to anything, I was just standing straight, then there was this emhem..not-so-skinny lady kept moving infront of me, turn to her friend to get her stuff, turn to lean of her bf, which is as same size as her, turn to talk to her fren, with me standing right behind her. Everytime she turn, my luggage got pull futher away, and the handle of my luggage was pulling my skin, argh, damn painful okay. I can't let go of my luggage right? So i try to hold on to it, and I got stuck in this standing straight-bending down position. Remember i actually had no space to bend, everybody was sticking with each other. back aching, skin toring.

Dahlah ktm lambat , by the time i reach mid valley, people were rushing to get in again. And guess who was the first one who push everybody aside to go out, that lady's bf, his is thrice my size and everybody around was being push and they pushed me. @##$#$@!$#%$%

wahlau wei like got some ghost in this ktm can't wait to go out, as if go out a second later will die like that. ARGH.

My hand remain numb for the next half an hour.
arghhhhh

EMOness

2009-10-05T05:48:00.003+08:00

i miss you babe
i miss the old you
i miss it when we say we are friends that never gonna let anything come across us
but looking at what's going on now
i feel rather helpless
i feel i have to be out of it
because there's nothing much that i can do
the more i get in
the more hatred i feel piercing through me
and i hate it
i feel sorry for you
you are on your own now
i wish you well

=)

2009-10-05T05:32:00.002+08:00

I don't want another pretty face,
i don't want just anyone hold,
i don't want my love to go waste,
I want you and your beautiful soul.

Coffee &Tea

2009-09-28T03:55:00.004+08:00

I am suppose to start going thru my tutorials now but i just cant stop finding things to do just to avoid starting it.
I started studying late as usual, so i'm here now suffering, overdose with coffee and tea. But tea doesn't work so i am left with the gastric killer,sigh.

You know, there's so many things in this world, actually happens; so many types of people that is ridiculously alive.
Don't get me?
There are people who are morally devalued, doesn't know how to respect, piece of shit, full of nonsense, extremely low mentality, childish as ever, spoil, stupid and are just irritating.
And what's the worst of it?
That people who are like this never realized that they are like that.
quoted from Ivan: Fck the world.
I've never felt this disgusted before.
I've never felt this hopeless for this people before.
Yet, this is the world we are living in.

xxx

Another DSLR and polaroid shoot.

SHOT SELF!!
note to self: be contented ~.~
will get one when i work.
xxx

Beach and friends!
This is the best combination ever.

polaroid

2009-09-26T19:49:00.002+08:00

Might be shifting to a new room.
Can i put this on the wall?
I wan a polaroid camera!
I wan a DSLR camera!
I really wish things just fall off from the sky
I work hard for everything except money
I think

xxx
ARGH WHY AM I NOT BORN RICH
ARGH WHY IS THE MONEY BELONG TO US IS SO UNFAIRLY TAKEN BY SOMEONE ELSE
BITCHHH
KARMA GONNA HUNT YOU DOWN
xxx

Hey look here!

2009-09-09T02:41:00.003+08:00

Awwww so cute right...
Just to brighten up your day,
if it helps =)))

I am oh-so-free, people around me are caught up with assignments and presentations, and also the IB event tmr. And while i feel that i should do something to stop wasting my time but i just can't get anything started. I am telling myself everyday,
" come on camille, do some work, look at people, shame on you. "
T____T
I am so addicted to this website, www.imgfave.com
They gona replace what I wana say from now on, good thing?yes?no?

This I dedicate to my best buddy, you know who you are ;) You r still gona be my dearest no matter what happen. stay strong.

And this I fav the most.
I EXIST!

cheers.
goodnite.

n o w a y

2009-09-06T11:12:00.004+08:00

i officially hate blogspot.
i just lost my layout function.
how do i get it back.
argghhhh
pissed.

*edited
Okay i changed my mind.
I still love blogspot.hehe
xoxo