Life is not always rainbows and butterflies

Why am I blogging again?
Because it's exam time! Haha. I don't know if anybody still reads my blog, but if you do I would like to say a big thank you!

I guessed I have came to the point where I feel certain things should be private and keep to myself including personal emotions. Therefore, this blog sort of doesn't serve its purpose anymore. But I like how once in a while I can just log in and probably leave a few messages just to remind my future self or just look back on my old self, reminiscing.

I remember I started this blog during my first year of degree and now I'm one month away in completing my course. Oh my! Like how everybody says it, time flies.

I have a lot of anticipation towards the future, but not so much towards working. I need to learn to take my time, pick up a hobby or two, just so I can get on the right track again. Because when you know deep down inside the answer is I DO NOT KNOW, you will probably end up making a bad decision no matter how much you force yourself. Of course I don't mean that you should waste time and do nothing. But I think it's time for a break for my insanity and to restore my faith.

And lastly to go home, to think of how can I repay my parents with the house they left for us. I might be new at all this, but I figure this shall be the time I learn. Learn whatever I can that is irrelevant to my academics. After 5  years of studying, I really need to learn something else that not draining my logical thinking.

To take a breather, to spend some time with the people that I've neglected back at home. To go pay respect to my parents. To brush up some skills, to read as much as I can.



Live life to the fullest.

It has been a while, I have to admit that this is a site that I've long abandoned but still having the hope to revive it.   Oh well, as far as I can recall, there's nothing that I did not stop half way, organ, guitar, ballet, drawing classes, dancing classes and the list goes on and on. I'm the typical hangat hangat tahi ayam kind of person. For 10 years of my life I've been trying to change it.

After interning for almost 4 months now, I realized that hardworking and discipline is not a character, but a habit. It works the same way academically, I have majority of friends who score distinction every time, and I wonder why I wasn't one of their kind. hmm. The only advice they've given is study everyday, even a little effort counts and helps a lot for preparing for your exams.

So everyone has been talking about their future now, where to work, where to stay, which line to go into, and I keep changing my mind, I just couldn't make the call right now, although I don't have to, I've got like almost 1 year till I graduate, but I need to have a target so that I can work towards it. I've been blindly following the flow for too long. This is the time I realized there is so many people that had already lay out their plans, like they already know what's next! I cannot be this clueless anymore!

Thoughts arrange and rearrange everyday.
Till I make up my mind, I guess I'm ditching blog.
God Bless!

Learning the hard way.

My blog has been pretty dead

Blog so dead lately, partially was because i was pretty dead too. Negative vibe is with me all the time, NOT GOOD, need to work on that. 

So, 5 random facts about me lately, 

1. I dyed my hair- reddish brown, it's still a little bright now, but it will toned down a little after a while, so the hair stylist say la, if it don't, accept the different me!

2. I am officially half way through my internship *gasping for air*. Time do pass faster when you're at work, 3 more months!  Got my 3rd paycheck :D 

3. I'm going to Bali next February, it's confirm, thanks to Air asia cheap flight tickets. 

4. I have a new record of staying up late even though I have work the next day- 2.30 am. Wasn't so bad after all, I manage to survive the whole day. 

5. I have insecurities and dependent issues. 

Long time no see!

This was taken during  our Ipoh trip last year,  at the abandoned Kellie's castle. ( the polaroid pretty much says it all)
Who don't adore polaroid <3<3 

So colourful! Remind me of the crafts box I used to have when I was into beads.

No more long hair, no more black hair =p

And so this is what everyone was raving about, mehh, nothing special.

Cocoa with pearls, bad choice =/

My typical morning at work =)

It's either have it all or don't have it at all!


Motivation, can you come back to me?
please.