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It's 54 days away to a whole new year, and i'm numbering the post just to see how many blog post can I write until the end of year 2010. Sounds very challenging to me ehh.
I was just wondering, if I were to write a very honest post everytime I feel like it,especially emo post,  knowingly other people will read it, will it be nice? (doesnt mean whatever I write here is a lie lar)
I was back home for the long weekend, me and my friends was having a conversation about how irritating are those people that always seek for public attention, constantly updating their facebook status, twitter, blog where ever they can. Ahh yes freedom of speech, or maybe the " I don't care how other people thinks about me" talk, but it annoys the hell out of me.
What I meant was, yes you can say whatever you feel like it, but do think of the consequences of your own talk, at least think about how other people might feel. With you rambling about how vulnerable you feel, doesn't make things better, instead, shows how immature you are.
What I'm trying to say is, some things are better to be kept to yourself. You don't need the whole world to know it, nor you have the obligation to inform everybody. Ohh well, maybe that attention given can calm your soul or whatever.
I better stop right here before I get nasty.

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And it was just today that I went to the cemetery because it was All Soul's day last tuesday ( hits me that I should visit more often) and attended the mass before that, I was feeling pretty overwhelmed. (refuse to use the word emo wtf) because the mass today reminds me of a very close friend of mine that passed away 4 years ago, which soon to be 5.  I have never felt so emotionally saddened for a very long time, not until the extend that I have to hold on to my tears so that other people won't look at me and thought that maybe the Holy Spirit suddenly possessed me.
This church, was the place we knew each other, we grew up together, Sunday classes that we attend every weekends, and hang out after that. We had a lot of memories together, he would be the peace maker every time anyone of us fights, be the joker that would entertain us, and behind of all this, he would be the person who care a lot about us, and always watch our back. He made an impact to each and everyone of us. He was like a brother to me, a friend close to heart. And until this very day, we still do hope that he is around.
We still talked about him a lot, that's because we miss him a lot. I know he knows that, and I know he is watching us from above.